Torn....

 I lost my Granny last May to lung cancer, it was devastating to my whole family and especially me. My Grandpa moved to Florida and built a house in my neighborhood so we could be close. I promised my Granny that I would look out for him and be there when he needed me. My Grandpa is a 75 yr old Vietnam Veteran and retired Army Airborne. He is still very active, works out everyday, and makes multiple trips to Wal-Mart and Lowes on his Honda Goldwing trike. I was overjoyed that he was so positive about me having my WLS. He and Granny watched me struggle with my weight for so many years and know how hard I have tried to get it under control.

 The day of my pre-op testing he went in to have his throat stretched. He had throat cancer years ago and the scar tissue was building up making it difficult for him to swallow and talk. While they were in there they noticed a growth and removed it. Turns out his cancer is back and he has to have radiation for 6 weeks. His radiation begins on the day of my surgery and now I don't if I should go through with my surgery as planned or put it off for a while.

I talked with him last night and told him I wanted to be with him every step of the way. I have no problem putting off the surgery while he goes through this. He held my hand and looked me in the eye and said that the doctor's told him they were 90% sure that the radiation would work and get rid of the cancer and he said he would take those odds. He told me he does not want me to put off my surgery, that he wants me to do it more now than ever. He already made arrangements with a buddy of his to take him to his treatments. I felt horrible and told him no that I would go with him. My Grandpa said that radiation is no big deal and he would stop by after every treatment and let me know what happened.

I just feel so guilty and torn..... it sucks.